Jesus said that his burden was light, but it doesn't always feel that way. For example, what does it mean to 'take up your cross'? How figurative is the language Jesus is using? Or, 'Those of you who do not give up everything you have cannot be my disciples,' What does Jesus mean? Or, 'I am the way, the truth and the life; no one comes to the Father but through me.' Does this mean unless I follow Jesus, I am cut adrift in this world, lost and without hope? But I cannot follow Jesus without being crucified ... Following Jesus does not seem as simple as preachers sometimes suggest. So Pen sets out into the wilderness to look for him. 'I have one big question that almost hurts in my heart,' she says, 'because I care about the answer so much. I want to ask him, Jesus, what do you think of me?'